Women and guilt....

Ever feel like this poor lady looks?  I often do.  As women, we feel like we have to be all, do all and care for all.  It can be exhausting.  Why do we do this?  I can't speak for everyone, but I am a nurturer and an educator.  I have a very strong desire to make those I love happy.  My type A personality also rears its ugly head at times.  My house should always be spotless, my child should be dressed perfectly, my grades have to be perfect...you get the drift. 

So far this morning I have:

Taken my child to school

Swept front porch

Cleaned windows on front of house

Hung ferns and hummingbird feeders

Pulled weeds from landscaping at front of house

Done three loads of laundry

One load of dishes

Straightened up Master Bedroom

Straightened up babygirls room

Planned our meals for the week

vaccumed house

Gave dog a bath

That 's a lot of work, but even as I sit here, I have a million more to-do's rolling around in my mind.  There's always constant guilt--always the feeling that I should have accomplished more.  Maybe I am a bit more over the top than some, but I don't think I'm too far off the "norm".  It sickens me how much our world celebrates perfection.  We should all be a certain size, have a large home with a manicured lawn, perfect children, etc., all the while feeling completed and happy.  It makes me want to scream!  My six year old already talks about being fat on a daily basis and it breaks my heart.  As a momma, I want to make everything better-maybe perfect, but I cannot.  We must realize and tell ourselves often that noone on this earth has ever attained perfection!  The only pure and perfect aspect of our lives is our relationship with CHRIST.  So, I encourage all you mommas, wives, sisters and friends to chill out a bit today and love the you that GOD created.  No matter how imperfect we are, we were created in his perfect image and that should be our fullfillment.  Easier said than done, I know!

I'll leave you with a quote that I think is so perfect...!  Made me laugh today...

Erica Jong:

Show me a woman who doesn’t feel guilty and I’ll show you a man.

It's been a year...



What a difference a year makes.  One year ago today, I made a huge leap of faith. Despite our pitiful economy, I left my stable, full-time job (one that I had held for 12 years) and quit to spend time with our child and to go back to school on a full-time basis.  Many thought I was crazy and there were times when I wondered about myself.  I was good at my job, I enjoyed my customers.....I just simply had to have a change. 

One year later, I realize I don't even recognize the lady I used to be.  Physically, emotionally, socially....I am so different.  My confidence level has soared and I feel good to be working towards my goal of becoming a teacher.  At my previous job, I never had the opportunity to dress cute.  I had no sense of style...my daily uniform was a green polo, blue jeans and tennis shoes....blech.  Now, as a librarian and education student, must dress business casual.  I love it.  The GAP has become my best friend..lol. 

The Lord has blessed us so much!  Before leaving my previous job, money was always on my mind.  Today, I could care less.  I've found GOD has been multiplying our salaries in amazing ways.  My husband made more last year than we were used to making together and this summer he will be starting an exciting new phase in his career that will require some travel.  My salary is now VERY modest, but our needs are being abundantly met.  Money is no longer a worry.  I have lived firsthand how GOD can take a leap of faith and bless those who are faithful. 

Prov 28:20) A faithful man will abound with blessings, But he who hastens to be rich will not go unpunished.

This and that....

Shew, y'all.  It's be forever...and a day.  What have I been up to?  So kind of y'all to ask....I've been sneezing and hacking, a lot.  We also can't forget the fevers and chest congestion.  My husband and daughter have been plagued with the same crap as I have...it's been going on for weeks now.  Currently, I am better;  babygirl is on her third round of antibiotic and is barely getting by and my hubby....well, he is a whole different story.  All wives know how men are when they get sick.  It's so pitiful...there are so much sicker than we've ever been, their chills are stronger, their throat is sorer,etc.  I"m all about pampering my man when he gets sick, but a gal has to draw the line sometimes.  For the last two months he has felt horrible.  My macho man who takes no prescription meds, has never been overweight, etc., had himself convinced he was dying.  So much so, that I think he even scared his doctor yesterday.  My hubby started describing his symptoms and tests started being ordered.  A CT scan, chest x-ray and numerous blood labs later, we have a dx.  My macho man will indeed live to see tomorrow....he will probably (lord willing) live a long and healthy life.  What's wrong with him?  Severe allergies.  His sinuses were mucho inflamed on his x-rays.  Guess what, y'all...I made this dx months ago.  Why don't they listen? 

Baby girl will have her second and much needed set of bilateral tubes put in her ears this Friday.  PTL.  I am sick of her being in pain and sick! 

As for me, I am hanging in there and only have one more day of class for the semester.  My job is fabulous and some days I still can't believe how lucky I am.  Despite everything negative in our lives, god is good!

A new obsession...

Y'all forgive me for the lack of posting.  Three things are overtaking my life....1) The end of this current semester.  I could write a whole new post of loathing teachers who cram tons of instruction at the end, but I won't.  Sigh.  2)  My job, which I love, but is much more demanding than I thought it would be! 3)PINTEREST!  I know, I know, I needed something else to consume my time like I needed a hole in the head.  Several weeks ago, I had sworn I wouldn't give in, but I've succumed to peer pressure I suppose.  I will, however give you my absolute work that I will not read the Twilight or Hunger Games series.  Don't believe in them and I find the whole craze just plain weird.  It's like super-overhyped hysteria.  Focus on the Family gave Hunger Games a pretty clean review, so I tried the first book in the series and could not get past page 24.  Just not my cup o' tea.  I will conserve my precious time for true literary works!  Hope everyone is peachy keen!